I am abusing my husband, out of habit or need for something I'm not consciously aware of. Is there help for me?

I don't know your financial situation but social services might be able to help you...be careful not to tell anyone the details cause some nut may take it to seriously & think your kids can be harmed. You are probably tired, not taking care of you & you just need some support. So you will get it. Meanwhile, look up some pretty videos that might also help you under the name of Abraham-hicks....you are on your way to getting better. Give you husband a lot of love now.